Not Coping

[Birdofparadise8]

Ah, yes, no, he hasn’t in a way. 
I just asked. I hope I haven’t gone too far, and he said no, don’t stress. I’m unsure if he will say anything else. 
Yeah, it could be him, but it just feels like the normal depressed me stuff which sucks. @ENKELI 

all good @creative_writer 

@Former-Memberhad lamb shanks. 
 @Former-Member I want to get better but I also want to let go at the same time so you shouldn’t be proud of me. I’m sorry. I’m such a disappointment to you all 😭😫

[tyme]

If you feel you need to speak to someone, you may want to contact Lifeline on 13 11 14 or KidsHelpline on 1800 55 1800 @Birdofparadise8 

It's important you get the support you need right now.

[Birdofparadise8]

I'm safe @tyme 

[tyme]

Thanks for letting us know @Birdofparadise8 

[Birdofparadise8]

Okay @tyme 

[Former-Member]

I’m so sorry to hear the complexity, chaos, and confusion surrounding the time you were experiencing trauma impacted on being able to raise it and get help specifically for it, @creative_writer 💜🫂🌺

Shock and the complete lack of knowledge in how to cope with situations often is significant in the how and why of things not ever being adequately addressed by the people we tell. I have my own experience of reporting that went nowhere, and this I felt, prolonged my internalisation of blame, shame, and humiliation, for some time. 
It’s not an easy place to exist in, and I am holding space for you 💜🌺

The upcoming placement sounds interesting - and I totally agree that your care and wellbeing are first priority when it comes to being able to sit in a workplace space and be resilient to the work you do. I hope your supervisor is a compassionate person and works with your strengths and is sensitive to any areas needing support while you are there 🙂🌺…keep in mind that placement supervisors are focussed around educational supervision, and not so much on professional development supervision, and while they may require some demonstration of professional development, it may not be focussed on the person within the professional, it may be focussed on the work application that a professional would do if they worked there..and the supervision or mentorship of a completely external, more advanced supervisor in your area of practice is purposefully focussed on you, and helping you develop as a person in your profession and role 🙂🌺

I hope that’s also helpful in some way 🙂💜

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 remember how I said I was going to take your crown if you apologised for something not your fault? Please don't feel like you've let us down, my goodness the opposite. Straighten your tiara princess, you have not let anyone down - you are verbalising how you feel and that is a heck of a lot better than internalising and then having a breakdown later.

Keep your crown straight, tell yourself you have more strength than the average 20 year old and remember aunty Enkeli will threaten to take your crown if you keep beating yourself up!

I adore you and cherish our friendship. I always sign off feeling a little bit better after chatting with you 💕👑💐

[Birdofparadise8]

Yes I do @ENKELI 

I would say the word but I won't. 

Thank you. That means a lot. 

Can I ask what happened last night then? 

I wanted to say goodnight but you left. Did your headache get bad last night? 

I hope you don't mind me asking. 

[Former-Member]

Please never think I think of you as a disappointment @Birdofparadise8 💜🌺 you’re a wonderful young person with so many admirable traits that I very much respect 🙂🌺

I know it feels awful right now, however let’s just hang in there, ok? And move through the next little bit till you can feel a bit better 🌺

gently remember dearest that you’ve recovered from feeling this way before, and I know you’ll be able to recover again sweetness 💜🌺🫂

[Birdofparadise8]

Thank you @Former-Member 

Yeah, I will hang in a bit longer. 

It's just sometimes my mind goes there you know they ending it side. I wish it wouldn't but that's what happens sometimes.