Not Coping

[Birdofparadise8]

Can't go now we had a fire drill, and the gas got turned off @ENKELI 

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 oh honey don't ever stop tagging me. If I don't answer it's because I'm in a bad place, not because of you.

You're one of the main reasons I like to check in most days, to see how you're going and if there is anything I can do so if I sounded offhand I am so sorry. I certainly didn't mean it to sound like that.

I am very unmotivated at the moment so don't take my absence and lack of response personally lovely.

I'm sorry you're feeling sadder. Was there a trigger or anything to make it worse this afternoon?

[Birdofparadise8]

Ah, okay, good to no thank you for clarifying @ENKELI 

Aww, you're too kind to say that. 

Yeah, I get that. I sometimes really have to push myself to get going. 

Weirdly, when I have appointments in my class and have to stick to them, it makes the day a lot better for uni as well. 

No, I've got back from seeing my psych, and my cake is in the over. 

Sometimes, there is no trigger, and I just feel awful for no reason. 

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 I'm the same, if I have an appointment I am much more motivated that day.

I am thinking of enrolling online to do a TAFE course, prob Business Admin and the best thing is that my services provider will pay for it. It might even help with job applications!

So what do you think about when you're sad? Like is there something that makes you feel worse or better if you think about it?

Lol, I know what I mean but I'm not sure I explained myself that well. So you've come back from a psych appointment, that obviously has made you feel intense emotions, in this case sadness. What thoughts are going through your mind?

[Birdofparadise8]

Wow, that's cool. They will pay for it. Why is that?

Tafe sounds like a good idea. 

Um, I'm not really bullying, so to speak, right now. (that's what I talked about with my psych today) 

I swear we are all over the place. 

It's so hard to describe, but maybe these photos will help. For example, when I'm sad, there might be other thoughts at other times, but I've got Taylor Swift on at the moment. I shouldn't be on the verge of tears. Some thoughts I do have are that I'm a bad person who deserves to die and that I'm dumb. That I'm worthless, hopeless, pathetic. Oh, my psych mentioned defeat today. 

I'm sorry. It just so hard. I don't know why my mind is like this I hate it. @ENKELI 

 

[Birdofparadise8]

Sorry @ENKELI 

I didn't tag you in the post. I was just coming back to see if you had replied by now and I forgot to click the tag button. 

I hope you get this. 

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 you don't have to apologise. I was just wondering why the sadness happens. I guess I'm a fixer and I like to try and help people who are hurting. That's why I got so involved with my ex best friend.

The job services agency will pay for anything that helps get me a job. They have job clubs that discuss different options for study so I am going to the next meeting to see if the admin course is for me.

It's hard when you don't have a trigger or a reason you feel sad, because then at least you could explore the reasons.

[Birdofparadise8]

Do you have to be on Centrelink to go to these job places @ENKELI? 

That's okay. It can be good to be a fixer, but also to listen at the same time is good too. 

Yes, it can be. I'm just sad and don't know why. 

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 I think you do have to be on centrelink for these job clubs. When you apply for centrelink and are needing to find work you are assigned to a job services provider. They then assist you with finding a job as they get paid by the govt to do so.

I don't know if this is of any help to you - https://jobs.vic.gov.au/ 

There used to be workforce development centres where you could go in and have your resume updated, get hints and tips on writing cover letters etc but they were phased out unfortunately. 

Are you registered with Workforce Australia? Not sure if it would be of benefit to you or not.

Here's a link I found - 

https://www.betterhelp.com/advice/how-to/learning-how-to-not-be-sad-coping-mechanisms/

Don't know if it will be beneficial to you or not x

[Birdofparadise8]

Ah okay well, I'm not @ENKELI 

I get a low-income healthcare card, and that's it. My parents earn too much. 

I've looked at the jobs there. Thank you. 

Lol, I hope this isn't rude. I just do not love the title for that depression sadness link. 

I've tried all those things, but they were not very helpful. 

I hope this also isn't rude, but I'm not sure if you caught onto what I was mentioning before. Can we just talk about it without you trying to find an answer like you mentioned before? 

I hope that's okay. I'm sorry if I upset you.