Sorryy

[The-red-centaur]

It's ok. My new house has air-conditioning, my old one doesn't. 

[tyme]

At least  you have air con. Makes a HUGE difference @The-red-centaur 

[The-red-centaur]

Yes

[The-red-centaur]

@tyme I'm having some really hard thoughts I'm trying not engage with. Idk wat to do. 

[The-red-centaur]

And @tyme I'm having issues with the support worker who started shift at 4. 

1. She had friends/family over for like the first 30-40 min of her shift, she didn't even say hi to me. 

2. I came to lounge room visibly upset. She barley acknowledged me and just grabbed put her computer and went on it. 

3. She doesn't respond when I try to use the staff phone to communicate coz I'm so upset I'm barely verbal. 

4. I feel like I'm more an inconvenience to her, and yesterday when I was so upset I was shaking she just said 'well if you don't know, I don't know' when she asked me 'what's up with you'. And proceed to then just walk away and spend rest of shift in staff room. 

Plus other stuff.

I dont feel comfortable talking to her rn.

I'm stuck and I like can't function. And i think engaging will make life just stop.  

[tyme]

What do you like doing?

Painting?

Reading

Watch a movie

Scroll through your phone

Sleep?

Phone a phone line?

Phone someone to talk to?

@The-red-centaur 

[The-red-centaur]

@tyme idk i would like sleep, but that isn't happening lately. 

I don't know how to phone a line rn, me being verbal is too hard to manage. 

[tyme]

I'm sorry @The-red-centaur , but is that the treatment you are paying for? Would you consider raising this with the service?

Sorry, but I get upset when people take advantage of those on NDIS.

[The-red-centaur]

I sent a message to my program manager with the company that i need to talk to them about the specific worker. He doesn't work weekends however. 

I have had other issues with this worker but it is getting worse. There is nothing I can about it now tho. 

[The-red-centaur]

@tyme I've been trying to distract myself with threads. But that place is so toxic. It's triggering me more. I'm tempted to delete my account which I wouldn't know how to do coz it's my insta account. 

I'm stuck. I'm over it. I'm lost. Idk what I'm doing anymore. I feel like I'm coming to an end.