Not Coping

[ArraDreaming]

Yep same @Birdofparadise8 I don’t condone this activity but we had $3 left in our bank account for groceries a couple weeks back and I worked out that you can buy a woolies voucher or petrol voucher for any amount using PayPal and it still processes
Better than risking your card declining cause sometimes it lets you overdraw at the shops sometkmex not….
You have to pay it back obviously but in a pinch it helped
Been doing some cash work on the side so that has helped a lot recently

[Birdofparadise8]

Oh okay @ArraDreaming 

I just need to find a job. 

I can't belive how hard it's been getting something. 

[ArraDreaming]

Yeah its shit @Birdofparadise8 feeling for you
such an annoying frustrating process

[ArraDreaming]

Alright buddy I better go @Birdofparadise8 operation clean up the garage is not gonna happen today and my kids are asking to go out somewhere

@Snowie yeah our garage is not too bad but it’s mostly organising stuff

[tyme]

Heya @Birdofparadise8 ,

Sorry, just saw your message. What have you been up to?

[Birdofparadise8]

I had uni all day yesterday and saw my psych. 

Did you see the post about that? 

I had a hard night last night. I didn't cope very well. 

I've just seen my physio and my uncle is on his way to come and see me. @tyme 

how are you?

[Birdofparadise8]

Okay, have a good day. I'm waiting for my uncle @ArraDreaming 

[tyme]

That's nice that you had a busy day yesterday, even though it didn't sounds it ended up too well. I'm glad your uncle is coming to see you @Birdofparadise8 Does he live a far?

[Birdofparadise8]

He came after golf @tyme 

Nah, he lives right in the city on the water. 

We had a nice chat. 

[Birdofparadise8]

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@Birdofparadise8 wrote:

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@Birdofparadise8 wrote:

I'm feeling really sad right now. I'm feeling quite overwhelmed. I'm unsure if it's related to what my psych wanted to discuss with me today or not. I'm just feeling like I'm a really bad undeserving person. I'm feeling really alone and like I'm doing something wrong. 

Maybe this fear of abandonment stems all the way back to when I was born, and being in the hospital, I wouldn't be looked after every time I cried, so my psych said that. That would be felt as pain or rejection. Normally, when babies cry when they are full term, they are looked after by their parents. So a baby wouldn't go through that "pain" my psych is referring to. 

Anyway, I just want to talk to someone. I don't like feeling like this. 

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We talked about how I was premature how I would be In hospital and that I wouldn't always have someone looking after me if I was crying and then that could lead to me in pain or feeling abandoned. 

So, this deep abandonment could stem all the way back to being born. 

And with the sadness. Then also with rejection not only around others but even my psych because he said I book the appointments so far in advance. But that is because I have a specific time to be available, and I don't want to miss an appointment. He said that's because I have a fear of rejection from him. But that is fair enough when I can only do that session. But maybe he is referring to my booking that is so far out. 

@Eve7 

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@tyme here is what I talked about with my psych. 

What do you think?