Not Coping

[Blackbird11]

I'm watching a movie @Birdofparadise8 how's study going?

[Birdofparadise8]

What are you watching @Blackbird11 

I've literally just sat back down to start. I'll see you in 25 min. I'm using Promodoro. 

[Blackbird11]

It was called the rebound @Birdofparadise8 an old movie I have in my dvd collection lol

Is Promodoro working?

[Birdofparadise8]

Yeah, it is good @Blackbird11 

Mum just called after I posted, haha. 

That movie is very old. 

[Birdofparadise8]

Are you still watching the movie @Blackbird11? 

[Blackbird11]

It's finished now @Birdofparadise8 

I just called a friend. How are you going?

[Birdofparadise8]

That's nice @Blackbird11 

Yeah getting there. A bit more study is needed, and then I'll call it quits. I also don't want to because I want to cry, but I can't. I need to get this done. I've got 4500 words now. Crying is not because of study; I like this revision. I'm just sad as well. 

I didn't like siting at the dinner table alone tonight. I'm used to sitting with my parents, and so I usually have something distracting me, but I thought I'd try and just sit and be present at the moment. That was a bad Idea. It made me miss having people around at dinner and showed how lonely I am. 

[Blackbird11]

You're never alone @Birdofparadise8 

I understand that being lonely can be sad. I live alone and get lonely too.

[Birdofparadise8]

Are you referring to being on here so I'm not alone? 

Yeah, well, I have two housemates, but they are in their rooms all the time. 

I have two PPT slides to go, and then I'm done. I'm exhausted mentally and emotionally. @Blackbird11 

Don't you have a GF as well? So I would assume you see each other a bit. 

[ArraDreaming]

Hi @Birdofparadise8