Not Coping

[Birdofparadise8]

It's not that exciting @RiverSeal 

I'm just getting a burger and going back home. 

I'm not feeling great. 

[RiverSeal]

I felt like a burger yesterday and I went to a favourite burger joint, and it was so busy, and I didn't have time to wait as I had an appointment, so I had Hungry Jacks 😢 I hope your burger fix is better than mine @Birdofparadise8!! What are you going to do for the rest of the day? RiverSeal 

[Birdofparadise8]

The burger place is called huxtaburger and it was $5 for the festival today. 

Not sure yet @RiverSeal 

[RiverSeal]

Yeah, I think I have had a burger from them and there is one in my local area. What a great price @Birdofparadise8!! RiverSeal 

[Birdofparadise8]

Yeah, it's for today only @RiverSeal 

I might do some study. I'm just trying not to feel. 

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 hey there!

I've been flat on my back - literally - after moving some furniture and a very heavy plant and woke up Saturday to severe pain in my lower back. I think I was in a haze of pain killers and anti inflammatories for the majority of the day. 

How are you going? 

[Birdofparadise8]

Hi @ENKELI 

You wouldn't believe I was just thinking of you to say hello. I checked my emails and saw your name come up. 

Do you remember that book I told you I was reading? 

Oh gosh, that's not good about your back.

Eh, I'm not great. I haven't had the best week mentally. Uni has been good though. 

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 not good that you're feeling bad. I do remember the book you were reading, how is it going?

I'm glad that Uni is good though, at least that's one thing to look forward to.

[Birdofparadise8]

Well, there is a lot of bullying in it. I'm not 100% sure I like it, but then other parts I do. 

I empathise with the lady who is being bullied. 

Yeah, not good. I'm just feeling a lot of things at the moment. 

I'm also confused about my psych session as we talked about a lot of this with me being premature and the traumatic effect that can have. I asked my mum about a few things with it and said what I assumed was right so I'll have to let him know he is wrong about a few things. 

Eh I don't know why I am feeling sad this afternoon. It's always around this time. 

Sorry @ENKELI 

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 no apology necessary lovely.

I remember reading about the book and it mentioned bullying. I hope it's not triggering you in any way. 

I had never heard of prem birth causing trauma. My oldest friend was born very premature and she has had no mental health or any other health problems for that matter. She is smarter than me and has had a very stable life. Like me, her mum was divorced and she never saw her dad either.

I was full term yet suffer with MH and joint problems. Who knows? Maybe there is something in it, maybe it's hereditary. There is no one else in my family who is bipolar, unless my dad is undiagnosed.

Go with your gut on that one, I think the psych might be looking for reasons why you feel the way you do. Maybe talk about it with KHL the next time you have a phone appointment?