Hello!  I'm so glad I found this forum.  It's lovely to read about people like me, even though I don't want anyone else to go through this.  I've had anxiety for as long as I can remember, and if I'm not watching carefully, it gets completely out of hand and rapidly spirals into severe depression.  I somehow manage to hold down a full-time job in health - but having said that, I take a lot of sick days when my anxiety is just too unbearable to take to work.  I find that the anxiety seems to have worsened over the years, and meds work for a while, then gradually become less effective.  I have a wonderful extra layer of guilt on my worse days (like today), because when I can't get to work, I have to cancel all my clients.  I just hate it - it's just so debilitating, and wearying, isn't it?   I feel like I'm living a half-life - neither this nor that, here nor there, and unable to give my best to my work or family.  Sorry to vent.  If I was offered a million dollars, or the chance to feel content and at peace, the latter would win hands down. Can't remember the last time I went to work without fear.  So very, very tired of fighting it.  I hope you're all travelling well today - chin up, as they say!