It has been such a hard day today. For some reason (I know why but don't want to say) today has felt like I lost my best friend all over again.
All the emotions are back along with the memories. From the phone from her ten year old daughter, to seeing her in the ICU with all the machines attached. Then getting to call that they where turning off her life support. The day of the funeral putting my engagement ring on her ring finger, she use to wear it every time I took it off to do something and fixing her hair because they didn't get it right. Everyday since has always been hard without her. Today my heart has felt the loss as if it was yesterday. I miss you so much my love, my tennis loving pain in the ar*e, my defender, my happiness.
